You know… being treasurer of my volleyball club is a good thing for a number of reasons. It’s good to learn about how these things work (i.e. how to deal with finances, etc.) and it’s also a good thing for my resume, since this kind of responsibility is highly regarded here in the Netherlands, and finally it’s also quite fun sometimes. However… I find it very difficult to combine this with my study. In fact, I can’t even imagine anymore that I actually wanted to do a weekend job as well.

The fact that I’m treasurer means I have less time, and less time means things slow down. But because of that I’m not happy about my studying. But because I’m not happy about my studying, I try to postpone work I need to do as treasurer, hoping that I’ll be able to spend more time on studying. But there the logic fails…

In the end I feel guilty because I’m not doing a good job at either, and I feel unable to do something about it. Maybe I should have said ‘no’ to the whole treasurer thing… I feel incompetent and it sucks. The thing is… I just need to manage my time better… something I’ve had difficulties with for as long as I can remember. And that sucks too.