It’s dark
humid
gloomy
Wisps of mist are flowing
    slowly through the trees
I feel cold
I feel lost
I feel lost in this forest of conflicting emotions
    with no sight of a clearing
I feel lost

You were like glowing sand on the beach,
Like sparkling water flowing down a mountain,
Like radiating sunlight in the early morning
Bringing a new kind of light into my life,
A new kind of joy,
A new kind of feeling
Yet you were an unreachable diamond,
Beautiful, yet intangible
Slipping away through my fingers,
Slowly, yet inevitably
You were someone special for me,
And you […]

My stomach is like a Californian tree
covered with thousands and thousands of
bright orange butterflies
Their endless activity
like leaves rustling in the wind
filling my stomach with tension, excitement
and a torturing feeling of longing
Longing for your eyes,
your voice, your smile
longing
for you
My head is spinning and my stomach is ready to burst
Free me from the suffocating beauty of these […]

A Troubled Mind
Last Friday I went to a forum evening at my university about ‘Cosmology, Evolution and Intelligent Design’. It was supposed to be a discussion between three panel members, a moderator and the public (about 300 - 400 people I think) about the relation between these three concepts.
Unfortunately the only defender of Intelligent Design […]

Traumas are like shadows of your deepest self, following you at all times and impossible to outrun. You can suppress them pretty easily by lighting your life with lights from enjoyable experiences and happy times, and at times these lights will remain bright for so long, that you feel as if the shadows aren’t there […]

I did some more reading on this and came up with some actual names for my views :)…
I also do not believe in a God that ‘interferes’ or ‘intervenes’ with our world, with this universe we live in. I believe the universe was at one point ’switched on’ by ’something’ based on a set of […]

In response to a discussion topic about ‘Is There No God?’ on the forum of the Church of the Younger Fellowship, which is a Unitarian Universalist spiritual community and worship space designed for UU young adults from all over the world, I wrote the following reply which I thought was quite interesting:

You know… I’ve always liked internet… the World Wide Web. It can be very time consuming and it can easily waste your time, but it’s one of the very best places to wander around in if you want to learn about our world.
There’s no place like the WWW, where I am confronted with people from […]

Hi all :) , I guess a lot of you have at one time or another seen the movie called ‘The Matrix’. Released in 1999 it stirred quite a bit of thinking both in myself and others. I was only 14 at the time I saw the movie for the first time, so I […]

Here’s a poem I wrote earlier today in Dutch. Check an English translation by clicking the ‘Reveal the rest of this post…’ link at the bottom.
Een warme lentedag
een stralend blauwe hemel, van alle wit ontdaan
een zuchtje wind, ritselend door het gebladerte
een zalig gevoel…
kwetterende vogeltjes, zich onbewust van onze aanwezigheid
je verwarmende glimlach, bij het zien van […]

I had a discussion with Susanne and Paula in New York about this. The question Paula asked me was pretty simple. “Could you have sex with somebody you’re not in love with?” The answer I gave her was pretty simple. Yes. The explanation I gave her for my answer wasn’t that simple, or at least […]

Here’s a poem I wrote today for my dearest friend Susanne :). As you can see from my last post, I received the package today that she sent me for my birthday. So I just called her, so we could open it ‘together’ :). After unpacking my presents, I read the poem for her…

Being grateful
IntriguingStrongSweetA […]

How do I see the world?… Difficult question… Let me tell you how I see the universe…
I like to think of the universe as a place governed by the rules of science. I like to think of it as a game, the game of life. At a certain point in time, something or someone - […]

It’s quarter before midnight
The last day of 2004
I’m standing alone on the roof under the last moonlight of this year
I see some early fireworks at the horizon
Wisps of clouds are passing by
Covering the brilliant stars of Orion one after another
I want some time alone because
I need to be away from the suffocating happiness and activity […]

Here’s a poem I wrote for my sister last year when she turned 16 years young.
Sis,
Every star is special in some way,
One star is very hot, another is very cold.
Some are shining in a radiant white,
Others are pitch-black, hiding in the darkness of their surroundings.
One star is surprisingly simple, another is very complex.
Some are dancing […]

Here’s a little poem I wrote for my mom when she turned 50…
Mom,
No matter how far in space or time we are separated…
on my sky
there will always be a little star
carrying your name.
Tijl
My mom cried when she read this… :|… The original version was in Dutch though, which sounds a tiny bit better. I especially […]